For You

19 May 2006, 1:37 PM

The sky is blue for you today
deep, piercing, azure blue
the shade that makes me think of you
and I do quite often today
as you are where I cannot guess
but I know you're not so very far away

There is a prayer on my lips for you
as constant as the color of the sky
for it is blue even when I cannot see
beyond the clouds
beyond the darkness
to your eyes

Blue Sky Day

19 May 2006, 10:03 AM

It's a beautiful, blue sky day
and the moon is not so very far away
on the horizon I suspect
awaiting what he cannot guess
as I sit in a very prickly place
holding him up as best I can
It is a heavy load of care
but so much lighter for the love I bear
as I search the sky for
one
small
trace of white

Unholy Comfort

16 May 2006, 12:25 AM

It’s tempting
I can see why the alcoholics
sexaholics do what they do

because I do it too

I don’t drink excessively
though I’m tempted to dull the pain
now and again
and it does dull the pain
momentarily

I don’t compulsively seek men
to warm the parts that feel so cold
when I’m alone
though I imagine they could satisfy
for a time

Once in a while
more often than not, if I’m honest
I eat for comfort
and it’s no more holy a habit
than fucking for the same reason
or drinking oneself into oblivion
on a daily basis in order to avoid
the pain

We all do it
It’s just a matter of how and what
and when and why
and who we dehumanize
in the process